Psalm 42



the wave

I’ve been working on this “wave” drawing.  I woke up from my sleep two nights ago with this wave image in my mind.  So, I started working it on paper.  I thought I might paint it but wanted to work out the colors first.   So, this morning I was listening to a teaching by Margie Burger.  She was talking about “Intimacy with God.”  Some of the things she said touched my heart and God was speaking to my deepest longing- to go into the deep waters with Him.  At the end of the teaching she was talking about sitting quietly and asking God for revelation and then being quiet to hear.  She was doing this on the video with the group of people she was speaking to.  They partnered up.  The only partner I had was me, myself and I. 

The whole time I am listening to her, I am working on this wave drawing.  Ever since I started it a certain person kept coming to mind.  I don’t know why.  This morning this person’s name kept ringing over and over in my head.  For whatever reason I kept feeling the nudging to add pink to the drawing.  So I did. 

So, the DVD ended, I brought my drawing, bible and self into my studio and sat down to ask God to reveal Himself to me through scripture.  I talked to Him for a few minutes with my head in hands and then waited.  It didn’t take long and what came to my mind was Psalm 42.  I didn’t have a clue what Psalm 42 said so I looked it up.  Here it is. 

As a deer longs for flowing streams,
so my soul longs for you, O God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When may I come to see God’s face?
3 My tears are my food day and night.
People ask me all day long, “Where is your God?”
4 I will remember these things as I pour out my soul:
how I used to walk with the crowd
and lead it in a procession to God’s house.
I sang songs of joy and thanksgiving
while crowds of people celebrated a festival.

5 Why are you discouraged, my soul?
Why are you so restless?
Put your hope in God,
because I will still praise him.
He is my savior and my God.

6 My soul is discouraged.
That is why I will remember you
in the land of Jordan, on the peaks of Hermon, on Mount Mizar.
7 One deep sea calls to another at the roar of your waterspouts.
All the whitecaps on your waves have swept over me.[b]
8 The Lord commands his mercy during the day,
and at night his song is with me—
a prayer to the God of my life.
9 I will ask God, my rock,
“Why have you forgotten me?
Why must I walk around in mourning
while the enemy oppresses me?”
10 With a shattering blow to my bones,
my enemies taunt me.
They ask me all day long, “Where is your God?”

11 Why are you discouraged, my soul?
Why are you so restless?
Put your hope in God,
because I will still praise him.
He is my savior and my God.

the wave

I am not making this up.  I sat there and read the scripture and just bawled.  It was for me.  I have been a little down and I am tired and just not feeling up to par.  I have poured myself out and I feel empty inside.  I have several ministry opportunities coming up that I am anxious about.  I know that God will strengthen and sustain me in these new things.   I know that when I listen closely to Him and do what He says-it will be HIM and not me showing up.  I am a vessel.  God is moving and showing me so many things that I am feeling the need to S L O W down and listen.  Don’t be hasty, don’t give up and don’t question or doubt.  My mind is working OT.  I want more of God but I also feel “plugged” up-like something more needs to be cut loose.  He cuts a little and I feel like “yay, we are on our way” and then there’s another branch that needs pruning and I’m saying, “ where did that come from?”   I feel like I am being tested and that I need rest.  I want to jump in the water and drown in God’s love-let it wash over me with endless waves.  My soul pants for His Living water. 

My hope is in God.  The GOD who created the breakers, the God who told the ocean where to stand, the God who filled it with sea life, the God who has whispered to me, “ you are my beloved daughter and I love YOU.  I have given you pictures to paint and I want you to come and fly with me.  Paint my daughter, paint.”     This is the God who washes over me with His grace, love and peace.  The GOD who holds my heart in His hands.  The One and only TRUE LIVING, MOVING, BREATH GIVING GOD.

My hope is in YOU. Praise the Lord! 


…and my friend….He is your hope too…one day we will swim in His deep, wide, blue ocean together….this is for both of us.  I have no idea if this means anything to you-but God knows.  I am walking in obedience in sharing it.  Margie Burger said that God loves our obedience and when we obey- He blesses.  We are not do ministry in the flesh-but only in the Spirit.  The flesh fails but the Spirit always wins.  Amen.

Now listen closely………..wooooooooo!


About godw1nz

I am the mom of three beautiful daughters, wife to a genius, sister to a teacher, sis-in-law to an engineer, daughter to a yankee and a rebel, and a woman chasing God. I love to read, draw and be with my family. If the reading inspires me, then I draw what I read. Almost everything I draw is based around or about Jesus Christ. I attend church at First United Methodist Hillsville. Ronnie Collins is my associate pastor, also a blogger here. I love the Lord with all my heart and I hope what you see here will inspire your heart.

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