Today is Day 10 of my fast. I have decided to continue on and not break my fast just yet, although tomorrow it will change to a Daniel fast. It doesn’t seem to be time to end it. Since I am doing liquids only, water, v-8, Gatorade and broth tonight I had a bowl of tomato soup. It tasted very salty but good. I was surprised at how small of an amount it took to fill me up. I felt like I had eaten a steak!
BUT! There’s always a but isn’t there?
I automatically went back for a refill. Old habits never die but they can be tamed with discipline. As I sat there thinking about how full my stomach felt I commented to my family how I had just gone back for more…. out of habit. Grr…. I pushed my bowl away and just sat there looking at it.
I thank God for His loving discipline in my life-even over a bowl of tomato soup. Lord help me break that habit of going back for seconds and instead, help me to listen to my stomach and how it feels before taking seconds. Just as an alcoholic needs to be reminded not to take a drink- I have been reminded of the hold that food has over me through a bowl of soup! I know that God is breaking me of this day by day.
Discipline is HARD!
Pastor Ronnie and I talked today about how big of an issue food is in today’s world and it is huge. Everywhere you turn there’s food. Food ads, food on tv, food in the fridge, popcorn with a movie, a frosty going to Galax, snacks at the store when you get gas, food at meetings, parties, breakfast biscuits, lunch meetings, dinner dates. Even our coffee is laced with enough junk to kill you. Pastor Ronnie told me today that black coffee alone is good for you in small amounts-but we know we can’t drink it black because we like all the junk that goes in it.
That’s just not right. LOL
I am seriously not hungry. Although I do desire to eat. The whole crunching, mashing and party in your mouth thing is highly being missed by mine. But that’s okay because God is in the business of refitting my body so that I might be fit to serve Him and magnify Christ. Being in ministry takes energy. It takes a body that is fueled with the right food-physically, mentally and spiritually.
I have plenty of energy during the day and in the evening I feel tired. I am still cold and having to wear extra clothes and socks to keep warm. Which I find interesting because I am normally very warm natured. I guess when we go to Resurrection I will have to wear a bear hide! LOL
I am looking forward to the trip with the kids and I covet your prayers. I plan to change to the Daniel fast for the weekend so I have plenty of energy to keep up with the kids! The Daniel fast is all fruits and veggies-no meats or dairy products. Then when we get back home I will return to the liquids. So, please keep me in your prayers because this weekend will be a test of discipline and I am praying for God to give me extraordinary strength to stay away from all those things the kids will be eating that I love!
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I love you Lord and I love how you are working all these things out of me. My family is amazed and my husband is encouraging me to keep on keepin’ on! WOW! He has been so supportive and encouraging! I am blessed to the max!
All Glory be to GOD on High!
10Create a clean heart in me, O God,
and renew a faithful spirit within me.
I love you Lord!