So, this morning I woke up to my alarm and the first words in my head were these:
“ If you were open to me, you could feed me….millions.” Ok- so it makes no sense written like that but in light of what I have been discussing with God and praying about it makes total sense to me. The missing word there is “to….millions.”
“If you were open to me you could feed me to millions.”
The first thing I thought of was food to eat. Then I thought about my recent prayers and discussions and realized it meant spiritual food. You see, everywhere I have been in the past month I have met people who are spiritually starving. I can feel their hunger pangs in our conversations. I have also met people who are physically hungry. So, hunger is on my brain. (Now that I am writing this and thinking about my own healthy eating journey since Easter I see how funny it is that God has taken my physical cravings for food and replaced them with a spiritual craving for Him!! WOW! )
Ok, so back to the quote…I am an artist and I love doing chalk art on a sheet. Last weekend we handed out clothing at an apartment complex in town. As the kids were coming outside and we were talking with parents in the parking lot about how the kids don’t go to church or even get out to play much, I began to visualize myself setting up my easel and chalk right there in the parking lot and doing church! I could see it all. Crazy or what?
Well, that’s not the first time I’ve had that thought. I’ve often thought of setting up on the sidewalk outside of OOTBWC on Main Street before the Sunday services and just letting the chalk fly. IS it crazy?
I have wrestled and wrangled with God over this for the past year and I am just tired of it! At one point I thought I could be a pastor, but today I see that I am to be a minister through art. Not just on my blog or on paper, but out in the world. I know, right? Scary stuff. I have discovered that the church ( in general) just doesn’t know what to do with the visual artist. I have been blessed with a church family who has helped me embrace this crazy gift! I have learned to use it to share my love of Christ with the world. Thank you church fam!!!! And maybe, just maybe it’s not the church that doesn’t know what to do with the artist, but maybe it’s just me.
God has been getting my attention in numerous ways. This mornings words were powerful to me. I heard them like this: “Donna-if you were really open to using the gifts I gave you-and I mean really open-you would do anything I asked of you to share the gospel with others. Anything. Right now you are dancing and dipping around. Get over it and get on with the work I have for you to do. I can use you to show people who I am. A lot of people. Get over it and get to feeding them- they are hungry and waiting.”
Following God requires us to get real with ourselves. It requires us to get over ourselves and get out of God’s way. It requires us to be BOLD and CRAZY for CHRIST! I can see the angels now, “will she or won’t she?” ha. Push, pull.
I work in a church as a secretary and when I got to work one of the hymns for Sunday was this:
“ WORK, for night is coming.”
My mind kept saying, “ wake up o sleeper!”
Then the next song had a line it….
“Come, share the Lord. His love is burning in our hearts like LIVING flame.”
Not like A living flame- but THE LIVING FLAME. Christ’s love in our hearts is weaving and bobbing in the wind and dipping and swaying when we move, it brightens when it is fanned and it lights the way for us to see the Truth.
I did this picture earlier in the week and it has to do with being a disciple. The cross is really me and my flame has been fanned ever higher in these past few weeks. So high in fact that I can no longer hide it or hold back. The little match on the ground is all of you. Each of you have done something to fan my flame and help me light my fire. The flames are the passion that I feel in knowing, loving and serving Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior.
What is it?
God’s Holy Word. When I sat down to read my homework in 2 Maccabees here is what I found in1: 1-7a- “May he give you all a heart to worship Him and to do his will with a generous mind and a willing spirit. May he open your hearts to his law and his precepts and give you peace. May he hear your prayers and be reconciled with you and not abandon you in time of evil. Here we are now praying for you.”
My spirit is willing. My heart is wide open. My anxiety is gone. God has heard my prayers. My heart is at peace. God’s prayer warriors are busy tonight.
This weekend I will be stepping out and sharing this at the flea market. I hear we are expecting hundreds of thousands of people. The number doesn’t matter to me-just that I am obedient to what I hear God telling me to do. All I am required to do is BE OBEDIENT and let God do the rest. I will be setting up in the parking lot at BB&T to minister through art. It is crazy. It is bold and I have to do it.
My friend Ruth Anne said this to me today…
What God lays on our hearts, God blesses. Go with grace.
So here, by the grace of God go I.